It's as simple as ABC - in fact it's simpler (compared to 3 choices of alphabets, you only have two choices - in / out).
Yet it's so hard to make the decision.
In - go into it and do it wholeheartedly without thinking much of the other alternative pathway to runaway. Just Do It, as nike says. No matter how hard it is, all you need to do is to resolve all the obstables which hinder you move forward. In, in, go inside and reach the top!
Out - Be decisive and say "no". Quit it when you think the situation is not right. Just turn it OFF. Or SMASH it. Out, it's another wisdom - not to mean give up, but find something else new, start afresh.
Most of the time, we are trapped in between - in or out. In the end, we reserve our energy, feeling , effort etc. This is a waste of time because we lost. As if a zombie, days pass but when asked: what have you done? the standard answer: i don't know. Some rather fool themselves, I am patiently waiting for something to happen. Well, waiting and waiting. Repeating day after day routine. In the end, you forget what you are waiting and even the opportunity comes, you miss it.
How sad! And seriously, i am trapped..
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Growing personality
People do change with time flies, don't they?
I have seen a photo by contrasting both a kid and an old man - the innocent laugh of the child and the serious face of the wrinkled face. The more you grow, the more things carried upon your shoulder, forcing the creation of wrinkles. People at our age, especially those who has stepped into the working industry, who can always show the most real and innocent face to everybody?? Has you been in the midst of anger surrounding, but still curving your lips into the lovely "smile" shape which expresses courtesy and politeness. Has you been cursing somebody (normally the superior) deep inside the heart but the actual words coming out from the mouth were compliment and exciting exclaimation? How true! How real! We are taught to be polite (especially asians), hardly say no and showing the real self in front of others. It's just so "kurang ajar". For people who has been under education (ajaran), what we should behave is behave yourself!
Sometimes, a lot of the times, I really feel i wanna find my tantrums and throw it to those I was angry with. But my guilt and regret and seft pitiness are always greater than my anger. So I end up in self-blaming and in consequences lowering self-esteem. What's my value? Why I keep doing the stupid idiot mistake? Am I really the dummy?
Well, I really hope I could be more relaxed and put my nerve into the standard mode.
I have seen a photo by contrasting both a kid and an old man - the innocent laugh of the child and the serious face of the wrinkled face. The more you grow, the more things carried upon your shoulder, forcing the creation of wrinkles. People at our age, especially those who has stepped into the working industry, who can always show the most real and innocent face to everybody?? Has you been in the midst of anger surrounding, but still curving your lips into the lovely "smile" shape which expresses courtesy and politeness. Has you been cursing somebody (normally the superior) deep inside the heart but the actual words coming out from the mouth were compliment and exciting exclaimation? How true! How real! We are taught to be polite (especially asians), hardly say no and showing the real self in front of others. It's just so "kurang ajar". For people who has been under education (ajaran), what we should behave is behave yourself!
Sometimes, a lot of the times, I really feel i wanna find my tantrums and throw it to those I was angry with. But my guilt and regret and seft pitiness are always greater than my anger. So I end up in self-blaming and in consequences lowering self-esteem. What's my value? Why I keep doing the stupid idiot mistake? Am I really the dummy?
Well, I really hope I could be more relaxed and put my nerve into the standard mode.
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