Monday, March 31, 2008

A journey of taste


A journey of taste has begun...It's the promotion in the Garden actually. But my taste-buds have been thirsting for something...something tantalizing! Yummy!

Check for more my food journey in my friendster...shilei2aurelia@yahoo.com!

I love you, chinoz!


I have stopped working, since yesterday!

Well, it's a relief for not having to rush for work every weekend, escaping from the sandwiching in the commuter...however, still, reluctant to leave those bunch of lovely co-staff...

For whatever the reasons, i will miss you all, forever and ever!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Travel is life!

Yesterday have been asked whether to go for a trip at Taman Negara after final exam. Of course i would answer yes!

Learn Sin is having her food blog, i just have an idea of having a travel blog of my own. To record my footprints...

Anyway, i am still on the learning path. Becoming a good blogger is not easy...First and foremost, my knowledge. It's an urgency to widen my knowledge and language skill in order to write something worth to read. Well, there is still a distance away. Anyway, i will try my best to polish my language and photo taking skill...

Wish me luck!

You can travel great distance!

Monday, March 24, 2008

Imperfect Family...what is perfect anyway?

Finished watching the first season of Brothers & Sisters...wow, good show! That's what i must say. Under the grand and furnished roof, there are conflicts in the family, while it seems perfect for the family: successful family members, with great career and social status...yet, in chinese, we said. "jia jia you ben nan nian de jing" means every single family has its own script that is hard to be read. That is simply just TRUE.

Just coming back from home, besides enjoying the warmth and enthusiasm of family, also, again feeling the pressures of my parents. Wanna everything being well done, their intensities sometimes are just too much, pushing us...sometimes, with small unwanted mistakes, we are being blamed like doing something completely wrong, enough to be hanged to death!

Well, after all, we are a family. Mum is always be dominant. Dad is always playing the passive part. Understanding is something very important to be existed. As the elder daughter, i have already grown up, an adult, must not throw tantrum as i like anymore. Try to think and analyze every incident from different angles. However, i prefer to be alone, like now, one person, listening to songs, writing blogs. I could not enjoy it more!

Blood is thicker that water. The bond of the family members is always stronger than anything, than whatever you think. Stay close, be involved in every family event. Pay compassion to anyone in the family, love them. That's the word, LOVE them! Before it's too late......

There is nothing as eternity...cherish the present moment, love everyone around you, around me...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Accumulated excitement ignites!

My stress has been abandon since the last sunday, after the statistics test. Mathematics subjects used to my nightmares. I dislike math yet enjoy the challenge it provides...it's a relief, after the test. Anyway, i admit my pressure is due to my high expectation to myself...

Then, it was such a good news to me that i finally realized my wish - successfully changed to single room during next semester! Finally i do not have to squeeze myself into the cubicle with other 3 persons, sometimes even more! I can switch off the light whenever i want to sleep (p/s: i usually sleep between 9-10pm). I can cook at my room without have to worry disturbing others! I can...so many freedom i can imagine...I think i am really the lonely island type person...

Next, i will be going home tomorrow! So excited! I asked Shinyi to buy authentic heongping from teluk intan, to give my dear parents to taste that! I decided to make a chocolate cake for dad, as his birthday approaching. I want to bring Shuwen to eat all the famous food in Batu Pahat, as this is her first eating visit to my dearest hometown. I have the responsibility to make her love this little town!

Just finished the French short conversation script! I enjoy learning foreign language! The learning process is always fun!

Just few days ago, read about the education system of Denmark. There is no CGPA, Gred of any exam or test. The students there only have to concern about what they like, what they are capable and what they want to learn. They listen to their heart, without comparing each other, which is massively practiced here! Personally very like the learning style of that place, focus on what we enjoy, and normally can achieve better...do not have to bother what the others say...

So, stop comparing with others. Self confidence is the essential to lead towards happiness. Paying full attention and totally enjoy every moment, it's the respect to the LIFE!

C'est la vie!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Isolation

This is my 4th semester. Every semester, comes to this going-to-end-soon period, there will be mountain high assignments to be settled!

Today, I feel so down. Just wish to isolate myself. Where is my invisible cloak? Went to French class in the morning, this is my favourite subject in this semester. I like languages! But i still have a resistance in learning cantonese. I can always understand the pain of not knowing what are others talking. That's why i try to speak the language that others are understanding (eg. do not always speak chinese when malay friends are around). But i notice there are still many do not understand and do not aware of it.

I want to join the conversation. But there is difficulty...In campus, sometimes i think i am a totally different person from what i used to be. I became quiet, silent most of the times, especially with bunch of coursemates. Not I do not want to socialize...I felt isolated, being the weird outsider...So, i will walk away...Or, i will smile, as a courtesy...I wanted to learn, but do not want to sound or act silly all the time. This stupid pride has put me in the awkward position!

The language problem sometimes make me feel i am so strange of being here. My language (some jokes or humors) are not understood...I often think, i do not belong to here!

Maybe, i never try to open my heart. Again, my pride plays it's role: why should i follow majority? why should i follow others? I should be proud of myself, my difference. In order to please others then follow whatever they are doing, this is not a wise thing.

So, since that, i have to bear the isolation. Sometimes, just being independent and enjoy on my own way.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Key

Blank...do not have any idea of what should post.

Just finished 2 papers yesterday. One of it already deducted 10marks, due to my over-confidence, never studied the question carefully. The coming paper will be statistics, on the Sunday morning...How many sweet Sunday morning have i missed? I have forgotten since when I have the hot coffee in the morning, listening to radio and reading the newspaper, then have a nice chat with my mum. Now, besides studying, i have to work. Yes, i would have a hot instant coffee mix in the morning, in the middle of mountain high notes or in front of computer. Yes, i would listen to radio via my handphone. Everything i can make for myself in order to enjoy my morning. However, one important element is absent, mum. Very frequent, i will think of my home. My batu pahat house front door key still remains in my pencil case. Every time, the key remains low profile, quietly laying in the dark case, negligible.

The key has been useless for quite some time. Even i go back home, the door remains open for me, without the necessary of using the key. Yet, it is a symbol. I often take it out and examine it. This is the most valuable key for me.

Next Wednesday, very happily announce that i would be going back home. With Shuwen, I want to show her the beauty of my hometown! Haha! I hope she won't be disappointed...anyway, cheer for home!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Commit Suicide

Due to the approaching Test2, i have been on the unhealthy path...both mentally and physically....

In 4 days, i have drunk 4 packets of instant coffee, 3 packets of instant noodles! I can't help to continue this suicidal behaviour to keep me awake at the early morning to study......I used to wake up in the morning (about 2-3am) to study, while my roommates are sleeping. I prefer to study in the environment where nobody is round. A quiet place. That is why i choose to sleep when they awake and wake up when they sleep.

Now i am searching for the bad effects of instant noodles...oh, it leads to cancer! Everybody knows in fact. But that fact is negligible to many. It leads to obesity as the carbohydrate content is so...so high! The sodium content also significant enough to spoil our health system. I want to find more on it...print it out, paste it on the wall beside my bed. To warn me, eat more instant noodles if you want to say goodbye to every loved one soon!

Must take good care myself! It's my promise! From today onwards, no unhealthy food, more exercise...ok?

I can do it! In order to achieve so many dreams...

Monday, March 3, 2008

Equality

The wars of Mars versus Venus are never ending...

As growing up, many perceptions have changed. Still remember just few years back, i was so reluctant and feeling so fed up of being a girl. That was my rebellious time. 'It's too dangerous for you as a girl to go there!' 'Isn't it so difficult for you to sit properly as a girl?' 'You girls are so troublesome!' ...... See, those comments have made me unsatisfied of being born as a girl, furthermore a non-good looking girl. Self-destructively, i acted 'manly' and haven't spent time in dressing up, as if it was shameful to dress up beautifully!

A person's mind does grow, a person becomes mature mentally as time goes. Later i learnt to accept the unique myself, as the one and the only. I found my confidence. I determined to be a girl with strong ability, equal to a boy. What a boy can do, i can do! In the years of studying in a boy's school (about 90% of the students are boys), i kept desiring in achieving something which was impressive, can make me proud of it...Well, i was lucky. Knowing a bunch of lovely yet capable buddies, i learnt things from them, a lot!

Now, as growing up, in the big city. Men are not all so simple minded as in the teenage years. After all, men and women, they are different! I personally experienced unpleasant verbal harrassment from someone in the work place. Only then i realized how important to have certain limit of self protection. I used to be very friendly with everyone, no matter your gender, of course. But since the incident, it's necessary to keep a distance from whom you do not know more. It's disturbing to have such incident. Now i know why there are so many bad guys still enjoying their lives instead of sitting in the jail. It is so demanding to ask an innocent victim who has experienced from sexual bully to recall and stand out and point out the bullier! Most victims would rather choose to remain silent, let the time to heal their wound slowly. Sad......That is why we girls must be always alert all the time out. That is why mummy ask us not to stay out late at night. That is why we are taught not to be playing so wildly outside. That is why......

Is there any equality of men and women here? It's sad to know one of the capable young female politician to quit the election. Have been faced so many insults and being bravely snap back for numerous time, she is the proud of malaysian ladies. But now, the reality is, she quit.

It is difficult for a women to manage especially in the executive position. A woman CEO once said, 'i am not a female CEO. I'm the CEO who happened to be a woman.' In order to lead, first, forget your gender. Always believe, the equality still exists.

Anyway, yin and yang. The balance of the nature. We as the little part of the Mother Nature has nothing to do in order to unbalance it. Men and women, both have different roles to play. Most importantly, respect each other. I always hate the guys who always look down on women...don't you realize how pain-staking to make you have the chance to see the fabulous world! With mutual respect and understanding, harmony can only shower among us!

Still, i believe in the harmony. Mars and Venus will have the happy ending!
Ps: i am still staying in the Venus wishing the ONE to balance my life! Believing in the existing of true love! Yet, enjoying being a single Venus!

Stay cheerful!