Yes Man!

As year 2008 comes to a close, it's time for many of us to make resolutions for the coming 2009.

Still weaving my dreams, without any practical movements to realize it. It has always my character shortcoming!

Thanks to CY, recommended the movie "Yes Man", starring by Jim Carey, to us. Funny yet meaningful! I feel it was a great movie to end my 2008, as it brings some enlightenments!

As i living out from home, to keep myself from any 'trouble', most of the time, i would say "No" to any offer. U know, shunning from the outside world, rather keeping myself 'safely' in the room, in front of the computer. As time passes by, the enthusiasm seems flying away. The so called 'dreams' have become the visionary hope, couldn't be reached.

I still remember Allison saying, "Life is a playground." Who says not? Just keep myself playful! I love the nifty me!

The successes u reap in life are the results of the positive energy and hard work that you have sown in the past - a past that you can begin forming immediately!

Time to Pick My French Up!

Today, the only class meet with lecturer was my French. I have been insisting to take level 3 in this semester, regardless the packed time schedule due to 2 6hours lab session each. Well, my target is to finish the DELF A2 before i go to practical during my last semester. So, it's important for me to finish my 3rd level in this semester.

Language always sounds interesting for me, unlike other subjects which required much memorizing and understanding and analyzing and blah blah blah...Language is fun! Well, let's put more effort in this level. It's going to be hard, surely. Stop fooling around and get a real strive!
がんばてください！

Au revoir, ma vacances

So my fifth semester break is coming to the end...

Let's flash those beautiful moments during the wonderful ending of 2009.

My holidays started with the fun trip to kuantan and kuala terengganu. Thanks to ST and SW, both of u are the great hosts! Besides the beautiful scenery, we have better understanding among the participated couse-mates. Unforgetable happly moments were weaved.

Time to face to reality, money is always not enough. As usual, i was going to work. As DutchLady 'MerryLand' station master. Well, it was boring yet i gained something in the 12days. A good experience by the way!

My dear cousins FINALLY got married! haha! This is my first time to be the sisters of wedding.

Followed by few baking gathering with friends...Hanging out yamcha at night...Shopping at The Summit, BPMall, movie...Blah blah blah...

In a very last minute decision, went to Singapore. Thanks to Alvin, i learnt something new in photographing...wish my skill can keep on improving...hehe! I shall say: Singapore is a beautiful place! Nice to visit, nice to CYCLE AROUND! haha!

Then, Christmas gathering at aunt's house at Skudai. Due to the unexpected problem of the car, we were having the unexpected stay at kulai. Took few pictures at uncle's garden...

Wow...great huh? At least i have no regrets during this holidays. Looking forward to more fun!

On the Sleigh

251208: merry christmas!

In this festive season, we have spent such a joyful moment with relatives at bukit indah, skudai. With aunt's home-made christmas cake and ice-cream, brewed pork with vinegar, and a lot of food and chats. Not forgetting, the shopping at the newly opened jusco at bukit indah.

It's time back to bp. Since we were driving, my sis n i decided to rotate drivers. She was driving back. Everything was good...until at the 29.8 of the PLUS. "It's hot!" my sis exclaimed! The index of the dashboard indicated the car was very hot, in the red zone already!

Quickly, she parked the car at the roadside. I shall say the mobile phone was the greatest invention in the century! I called for the PLUS service. Before they arrive, the private services have been approaching...they tried to persuade us to accept their kindness for towing our car to the nearest workshop. Anyhow, i decided to trust PLUS instead. However, their service was only limited to the nearest toll.

At the Sedenak toll, we waited for uncle who was living at kulai to our aid. Final decision, still, we have to get the towing service.

I was at the driver seat, sis was beside me. So, we were being towed! Not to forget, it was Christmas! So, we were as if the Santa Claus, on the sleigh. The only difference is, we did not see any reindeer! In order to record this special experience, sis n i took out our mobile phone (again, the greatest invention), record a movie during the 15 minutes tour.

Well, the car has been sent to workshop. We have an unexpected stay at uncle's house. After lots of fun and exciting moment, i was defeated, by the lurking influenza.

OMG, time to rest, waiting for getting better.......

bread baker

Recently have been keen in making bread.

Yes, it is BREAD. I have been intending to try on the home-made bread since one year ago. Finally in this holiday, i worked it out! My first trial was the sweet bun without any filling. It turned out not bad, at least for a first timer (according to my mum). Well, the good beginning injected motivation into me.

I kept on trying, pandan bun, peanut butter bun, and the most recent peanut sweet bun. The buns are tough, not that kind of soft and fluffy which some of u might think. But the taste is there, only the texture, might need some improvement.

I try to figure out the reason. Searching online, finding different recipe, asking around for suggestion...still have no a better idea...

anyone, welcome any suggestion for making softer bread.

thank u!

recharged...for change

Feeling better from sick yesterday. I was almost in the dormancy for the whole day. maybe it was a signal given to force me to have a good rest to replenish my energy which was at the critical level after back from singapore.

Anyway, i have spent good time at the metropolis. Another good experience. Another eye opening session. Another thought of life. Another...me.

Very soon, the new semester would be coming. I hate the thought of repeating the routine of study life. So i determined to make some difference...some changes...

Be courageous for the change!

night cycling

in the very last minute, i decided to come singapore. it was an interesting idea attracts me here, cycle around the island.

on the first day, there was research on detailed singapore road map in chernyih's house. anyway, we have a trying on our cooking skill for dinner that night. it was lovely to enjoy the freshly cooked vege, meat and eggs. thanks to chernyih's dad, i enjoyed the ceylon tea indulgence.

the night has come. we cycled and cycled, along the road. at first, the breeze and drizzle was refreshing. then the rain was quite annoying since we were wet. it was definitely not comfortable. mountbatten, geylang...after about 2 hours, the town has been reached. photo snapping time. it was the night scene of a busy city. 2am in the orchard road, without crowd, only the lonely candy decoration.

lost in the city. the criss crossing of the unfamiliar roads. although the map is on hand, it was not much help to fulfill the earlier target - cycle around the singapore. following the mrt railway was the final decision...tiong bahru, redhill, queenstown, commonwealth...

drenched, exhausted, lost......finally we gave up. in order to reach east coast in the morning, we have to find the way back. again, the way back was a challenge since the juncitons and roads were fooling us again.

a few kind-hearted people were met. few advices and suggestions were given. yet there were contradictions. in the end, it was the determination left to keep us back to the route and keep cycling. numbness, pain...all has been put behind.

anyway, being able to return the bicycle to east coast on time. though tired, it was a great experience. how many are able to cycle in an unfamiliar city for more than 8 hours continuously?

satisfied, yet looking for more!

Happiness

Each time passes by the bakery shop, smelling the freshly baked bread, couldn't help, i feel it was a kind of happiness, isn't it? Many of the times, i share the thought of bakery shop=happiness with few of my friends. Just imagine, only the bakery shop with its oven, its bakeries could bring the feeling of comfort and happiness to a lost chilled lonely kid!

Planning for almost a year, today, my dream realized! I baked my bread! It was a success, i can say. The tinkle sound of the oven could trigger my excitement. The moment, open the oven, it was the satisfaction i couldn't tell.

I shared the bread with mum. We chatted, with the smell of the buttered sweet bun, with the pot of tea...we had a sweet evening! It was happiness, wasn't it?

I wish, deeply wish, i could bring happiness to people around me. I can do it, can't I?

wedding feast

since back to bp, i was occupied, at least didnt have much time to shake my legs at home!

Friday, it was the wedding buffet at cousin's house.
Saturday, wedding dinner.
Sunday, as sister companion, followed my dear cousin to Muar.

A wedding really required much energy and of course, cost! wow, it looked so glamorous to all the invited guests. however, for the pair, it was super tiring!

Is it really necessary to make ourself so busy by holding such a big feast during wedding? i wonder...

miss invisible

Have been laid behind from internet for about 2 weeks, working at midvalley...the 2 weeks was a boring routine - Eating-Working-Sleeping. The EWS was a cycle, repeating. I hate that kind of life, thanks god it only last for 12days.

I find myself was a weird element there, it was almost impossible for me to mix well with the others. I was insoluble in the solution. There might be 2 causes, I have repelled myself from the group; or i have been repelled by the group. Well, the might be other insignificant causes...

I learn to enjoy to be the miss invisible. eating alone, walking alone, hiding in the corner...though smiling, there is something concealed, something to hide. Insignificant element, make no difference with the presence.

There's a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

The more days i live, the more i feel i do not belong to anywhere i stay. How i wish i could step out from my comfort zone and take a wider look outside...