Qian Shou Fo Xin

Recently just finished reading a book of bibliography, QianShouFoXin by Ching Yun, Bezine. The book is a translated publication in chinese (in English, it is titled: The Master of Mercy and Love, Cheng Yan). The author is an american borned chinese, aimed at propeling the charity of Tzu-Chi and Buddhism.It's a great book of the real story of the ZhengYan Fashi( Dharma Master) and her commitment in organizing the Tzu-Chi Foundation. Only two decades, the Tzu-Chi has expanded into an international humanitarian non-governmental organization. This foundation practices 'doing goods' regardless of races and religions.

I am not a Buddhist yet inspired by the Buddhism practised. Tzu-Chi is a movement. Keep moving around the globe to give a hand for those needed. Instead of praying passively, they are more focus on action. "Our lives are just like climbing a mountain, over and over again. We could not escape the difficulties and sometimes the tragedy, yet we should help the comrades who are climbing the same mountain with us."

Do not ever underestimate what you have done now, every little task has its meaning and contribution. Do it wholeheartedly. Appreciate people and things happened around you.

More and more...the book made me contemplating.
Inspiring.

R E A D

R-reading as much literature as you can
E-establishing your own idea
A-affection building on your own idea
D-develop the method to carry out the idea

This is basically what i have to do nowadays - continuously reading and digesting.

Fond to read, fortunately.
Sauntering among the alphabets...

Homing

Staying at home-homing?

No matter how far you are sailing, deep in your heart, the safe harbour remains where your family is.

Tomorrow early morning, i will be off to school again. Every 'last night' at home, I used to be sleepless, restless. My mind swirls and swirls.

I don't want to spend the last few hours at house unconsciously, every minute, every moment should be savored. I think, i write, i listen...In the few days homing, my depleting energy recharged. I want to remain who i am, afraid leaving home for too long, i will lose MY way.

Looking forward to exile, because long for home-coming.

Valentine

Almost one week after Valentine's Day.

14/02 to me, it's just another usual Saturday, stayed at my hostel room, took as much rest as possible.

Seeing those couples were so busy and troubled about program planning and deciding what kind of gift should be given to their significant one. That has created a need in the market. The market was really flooded by so many kinds of commercial products, targetting the lovebirds. Love is blind, purchase for love is blind, too?

Anyway, for us, young adults, how should be love like? Taking care of each other, enjoying the warmth of being loved and loving, then...what should be done practically, to express your love and care? How many phone call shall be done? How many sms per day? How often going out together? How many movies shall be watched?

To me, i think the ideal relationship is being together with an admired, loved one. There is always joy and pleasure and peace, needless to count the phone call, sms, movies, shopping frequency. The two would be feeling the existence and care of each other, needless to speak much, needless to meet much. You can sail away, you can fly away...only deep in your heart, you know, your loved knows, both of you are connected, regardless of the physical distance. Freely doing anything you like. Then once a while, the two would do ANYTHING with their interest together...adventuring, exploring, escaping the bored daily routine.

Some says, love is selfish. I agree to a certain extent. So, the above ideal dream is almost impossible to be existed to both who claim to be COUPLE.

Therefore, for those worship freedom...stay single.

Endure the LONELINESS, as it is the opportunity cost of FREEDOM.

Again, I want to run away!!!

It was a blue Monday.With 2 blows in one shot. The most, i would say, it was my 4821 first test paper - only 8/20!! It hard for me to accept it at first (the highest mark was 19/20). What's wrong with me?? How could i get this mark??

I thought i was going to let-it-go...yet whenever i think of that, there is still a pain throbbing my heart. Again, my usual run-away-from-it habit re-emerging...i don't wish to go to class, i don't wish to see other course-mates, i don't wish to do any revising...i just wish i could shut myself off!

Don't bother me.
Shutting down...

Healing.

XOXO Indulgence

All the Gossip Girls fans surely familiar with the term : xoxo...

Anyway what does xoxo means?

X : kiss
O : hug

Get it? XOXO : kisses and hugs!

Interesting abbreviation, i shall say. Anyway, thanks wenvven for giving me such a little surprise of "xoxo" during this valentine's day. Lighting up my day!

Are U An Entrepreneur?

A talk organized by Golden Key.

Sad to say, the number of audience was not hard to count, within 3 persons fingers, though it is an interesting topic and good speakers were invited.

Micheal Tan : only 23 y/o. Founder of yourparttime.com.
He shared his stories of open up his own business during his studying time (upm as well). He can be my role model, serious! I really intend to start doing my business while i am still in school. He is right, actually we have plenty of time during studying years if we know how to manage it.

Henry Goh : 27 y/0. Founder of Micro Kiosk
This speaker was quite inpiring, for me. He has a courage to change his life, to let down his parents expectation and manage to succeed in his own route! The 10 principles he mentioned are just perfect! Please yourself, not anyone else. Yes, do not force ourselves doing sth we do not like just to please the others. No regret, no failure, ony lessons. We are YOUNG, so try it, why not? Do not be afraid of failure, it is NOTHING. Only lessons and experience in the end!

Kevin Zahri : 30 y/o. Founder of Maxhosting.com.my and cekodok.com
He is playful in life. Enjoy everything he did and does. Well, probably this much or less is related to what his family background. The wealthiness in his family can really make him playing around. Yet, he has the right attitude towards his life. When you think about it, just do it.

It was a nice Friday evening. I do learn sth.

Outing with Sis

It was YuanXiao. The ending of Chinese New Year...going out with Ting. Have been spending a beautiful holiday! Having nice chat, nice foods...shopping for shoes, books...

This outing have changed the impression of Food & Tea in my mindset...i was never having such a good image of their foods. Yet this time, it was satisfying! The service crews were prompt and enthusiast! Needless to say, the food we ordered was flavorful and in really big portions!

Nice long chat. Exchanging recent stories, jokes.

Cinderella

Fall in love with the lyrics of the Cinderella, by Sweetbox :

When I was just a little girl my momma used to tuck me into bed
And she'd read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

(Chorus)
I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else. I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

(Chorus)

I can slay my own dragons. I can dream my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me. So I'm gonna set me free

House of Leprosy

Different from the other Sundays, today, i joined the tzu-chi to pay a visit to the house of leprosy at sungai buloh.

Have been intended to join Tzu-Chi activities since last year, always put it aside with much excuses. Finally, take my first step today. It was a special experience, valuable lessons learnt.

Leprosy is longer a deadly disease nowadays. Yet it was scary and once you are the unfortunated infected one, you are doomed to be left from your beloved. Imagine, those victims were sent to the house of leprosy by their own family, who promised to be back to pay them visit, yet the promises were never be more empty...Alone, sick, both tortured mentally and physically...most of them committed suicide in despair.

Now, since the discovery of the vaccine, the infection of leprosy has become a history. Though, the physical deformity of the victims due to the past outbreak was permanent. Supposingly those suffered are considered to be self-closed, self-pitied, or even bad tempered. It is WRONG!!! Those elders are so enthusiast whenever we were arrived. They were keen to share with us about their stories. Some even sang and danced with us. They were full of energy despite the physical limitation.

They are wise! I have been touched and enlightened by an grandma victim. She is so cheerful and always bring the joy to the people around. I feel so ashamed of myself, tend to procrastinate and always worry about the future. Why touble myself with those uncertainties? Grandma mentioned, live in the moment. It is a golden sentence to me!

Other Tzi-Chi volunteers also imparted a lot of wisdom to us. Wisdom towards life. There are so much for me to learn. So much!

Blessed! Love is passing around and around!

Carrot Panmee

Only RM 4! It was such a BIG bowl...Yet it was appealing with the different colours, yellow for corns, red with crabsticks, green with vege, light black with seaweeds, white with the fish ball and the main focus of the bowl -- carrot panmee! The panmee was mix with some kind of carrot juice...just like the process of making spinach panmee.

It was satisfying.

Soup

For me, i love to drink soup as my mum was great at making soup. It was always accompanied with the dinner, giving me the filling and satiety at drinking that. Drinking soup gives me a feeling of home, sweet home. The love of mother is always infiltrating into the hot soup, making it simply irresistable.

In our lab, we were required to produce different kinds of new invented soup. Soup is always my weakest part whenever talk to a full course meal. Instead of trying on my weak western creamy soup, i try to be oriental+japanese oriented. I love mum's watercress soup and have been trying it in Singapore...got pretty good feedback. So--watercress miso soup was borned!

Tofu, shiitake mushroom, in watercress miso soup...yummy! To think of some accompanion dish, i thought of cold soba...
Cold soba with seaweeds...I love the decoration. The taste was refreshing, icy with healthy miso!

Anyway, the centre of focus was the yinyang pumpkin and grean pea soup, produced by previna!
See?! It was nicely decorated and the color was just matched! More terribly, the taste was great!

Then, other group also presented a terrific jobs...take a look...it's simply professional!

Fantastic huh? All i would say is...ooh-lah lah! Soup is never be boring!

Steamboat

Chinese has the traditional eating habit during Chinese New Year, i.e. steamboat.

Majority of us having the steamboat during our reunion dinner once a year. The poor steamboat pot in my house was kept in the unseen corner, the only entertainment of it was playing with the dust in the dark and surfing spider-net...lol...yet, it was waiting. Waiting for the Chinese New Year Eve to show off its well polished body after the 'spring-cleaning' (da sao chu) before new year...

Sadly to say, the steamboat pot of ours, after serving loyalty for more than half a decade, is going to bid goodbye to us. It was spoilt...there was no longer the electric connection in it no matter how hard we tried...Let's look at him at the last glimpse:How to use it? It served as a big bowl...after the vege and prawns were cooked above the stove, they were put inside the dying pot...

Rest peace

Remain Childish

Sitting down, filling the bellies and swapping stories. This are the things we have done over and over again during each gathering.
Festival seasons = rendezvous with friends and family
In the facebook of this month, there are flooded with Chinese New Year albums...everyone seems so enjoyed! Maybe, in our age, we still need bunch of friends around to listen to our dreams, to clap to our gassy stories......some says, the friends met during the schooling years are the most precious, the friendship forged is the most sincere, perpetual. I agree to it...physically, we have changed, towards more trendy and adulthood-like external dressings. Mentally, we think more practically about coping, surviving in this downturn period. Yet, when together with each other, the childishness which we were trying to conceal revealed...we are still young, okay?
See, we are the most wacky little mischievous playful pixies!

*Could't stop laughing now...

Focus

Searching...Seeking my focus point.

My concentration should be put on the marketing book, not else where...

Yet, my mind is captured somewhere there..