Broga Hill

Crack of Dawn. Started climbing at 5.10am, reaching the peak in the dark, with fume of anxiety and expectation to see the sun rise.


We could be very tiny, no matter how big we think of ourselves.


Nature teaches me how to laugh, how to appreciate the simplest joy.

unwell

Another sleepless and worried morning. Awaken in the early morning of 3.39am, there was a sound keep swirling inside my mind: It's time or too late! I know, it's time to pick up my studies, after few weeks of playing around and not paying attention in the REAL academic study. What worse, it was not a nice waking up alarm, instead the tense and unwell feeling made me feel extremely guilty to go back to sleep.

However, switching on the light, sitting up, facing the computer, feeling there are lots to be done. I was lost. What to do? Where should I start? I was fidgeting around and on the table, restless. Opening books one by one, flipping the pages...But, what did I find? Where shall my eyes rest? I was MINDLESS.

I need a lullaby, to sleep me. Or another book (no textbook, of course!), to have a casual reading, to divert my focus of worriness.

Where is the compass, to show me my direction?

Friendship

Back to sweet home on Monday night. After rocking to and fro in the noisiest, oldest type of bus, all the way from Kluang to Batu Pahat, stopped at each and every bus-stop, finally we reached our dearest hometown.

It's very enjoyable to have friends chatting in the journey home. We shared the talks of foods most missed, places most visited, things most done, schools which we studied etc. It was definitely not a pleasant ride, yet,no complaint, only jokes and fun!

Welcomed by family once reaching, going for a late dinner (9pm is definitely a very late time to have meal in our family). Then, after taking a buffalo bath (quick shower), off to have the 1st gathering session with friends.

Like to have friends around. We have never-ending jokes and topics, until we really cannot stand the drowsiness (more precisely, it was ME who was the only one going to wander in the lullaby in the early morning, 2-3am).

Two consecutive nights of 'morning gathering', which means until around 3am...I'm proud to say I was still able to keep myself awake during that hour. Nevertheless I hate myself always getting up at 7am no matter what time I sleep! Lacking of sleep makes me dizzy. I was having a hard time to control my temper though during the day time. Is there any syndrome of 'DTD-Day Time Depression'?

Anyway, I do really cherish every moment to have gathering with friends. They are my treasure in life. I could not predict what will happen whenever all of us going in the work field, would some of us change?

If I am allowed to make a wish now, I would say: friendship forever!

環保展后之感想

最後一個學期了，我告訴自己，跟著感覺走，想做什麽就去做，以免日後回首，大學生活還留著遺憾。而我要尋找的，是心靈上的成長，是個人修養的提升。所以，當初就義不容辭的成爲環保展工作人員之一。

一直都很喜歡通過文字抒發情感，也酷愛用文字來以他人聯係。文字閒，往往帶出了人與人之間常忽略的情感，也揭發了常存心間的感動。因爲愛文字，所以成爲了文宣組的一員；因爲相信文字，所以希望成爲賦予文字生命力的其中一員，讓文字縈繞著大家，把人與人的心串起來。

環保展今年之主題—與地球共生息，宗旨無非希望更多人愛惜地球。畢竟，全球暖化與接連不斷的天災已將地球上一部分的居民陷入水深火熱之中，安逸生活中的你我，將心比心，何以不獻出一份心一份力？在籌備環保展期間，幹部們的盡心盡力真得很令人動容，同時也很慚愧無法貢獻什麽。因爲接觸了環保訊息，了解到地球真的是生病了。七月一次的文宣組開會，組長修美懇請出席者不再使用保利龍飯盒來打包。雖然之前我都有盡量避免使用保利龍，但還是偶爾會用上。值得一提的是，自從這次開會的發願之後，我到目前還真的完全沒有用保利龍來打包。如果真的是忘了帶飯盒出門，就賣麵包或其他東西來果腹，總之就是不用就對了。雖然只是短短的兩個月之久，但還是引以爲榮，希望自己可以一直持續這個堅持下去。

因爲了解到環保不是一兩天的環保展或幾個月的籌備期間才應該做的事，環保是一世人的工作，是一生的努力，爲了不讓自己對環保的熱情冷卻下來，我毅然放棄了之前想要在新加坡或家鄉做實習的打算，轉而申請一個積極投入環保工作的有機店食品公司。希望將來的我，在一群人的陪伴下，仍能很驕傲的拍拍胸口說：“我是環保的一分子”。同時，更希望能帶動和教育更多的人關於環保的訊息，讓大家都能成爲“愛地球達人”！

DaPao-ing

I have participated in few activities before, lunch normally will be provided. However, this time it's different!

See, all the food are nicely packed in a lunch box which is non-disposable.
I wish this practice can be spread to as many society / association / body / club as possible.

Let's be a part in saving our environment!

Hamburger or Earth?

Listen, this is very important, before everyone of us has adopted the sinful diet pattern.

Guys, before entering KFC or McD or want to have a so-called value meal, stop and please think twice. Please be aware that:

Eating one hamburger is 55 square feet of rainforest, which also means the end of half ton of trees, seedlings, seeds, insects, birds, reptiles, mammals, fungi and microorganisims.

Perhaps some will protest, life is to enjoy! We live to eat (instead of eat to live)! If limit here limit there, where is the joy? Eating habit can be changed, although it sounds hard to avoid meat to most people, but will it kill? Answer is a definitely no...I m not asking everybody to refuse meat AT ALL, just REDUCE the consumption of meat. Maybe, one week once or twice? Ok?

Imagine, 5.5kg of grains only can produce one pound (454kg) of meat which only sufficient for ONE meal. However, same 5.5kg of grains could produce 5.5kg of breads which can feed 18 meals!

Just for your information, everyday, 40000 children died of hunger in third world countries. Ironically, more and more city dwellers fork out a big quantity of money in slimming!

We can make a difference at every single meal, simply by leaving the animals off our plate. Don't end up consuming the food that is meant for our future generations!

Dearie Weekend

The past weekend was just Great!

Able to see old friend, and meet new friends. SH, all the way coming from Batu Pahat, just to have a cup of bubble tea with me in the Times Square. Then, we met up with her campus friends who stayed at KL currently. It was a joyous and happy moment to see them after my last visit in Terengganu almost one year back.

Having dinner at Room Eighteen, Times Square.

It was a sudden idea to have Bak Kut Teh as breakfast at Klang in the Sunday morning. Although lack of sleep, the urge to enjoy lovely BKT made us dashing to Klang from Serdang in the early morning. Having brunch in the Sunday morning was another happiness. Able to see a lot of family, sitting in a round table, having breakfast and drinking Chinese tea for quite some long time (compared to a normal meal). I like this kind of ambience. Like staying with my dear parents in my hometown. Sunday was definitely a family day!

I was always quite worried about my questionnaires. Since SH was accompanying me, I decided to 'make fully use' of her. lol! We went to Sunway Pyramid to distribute the questionnaire. Surprisingly, we managed to conquer our shyness and able to collect 36 sets of questionnaires! Clap Clap Clap!

In fact, distributing questionnaire in shopping mall made me discover few things. Almost 80% of people sitting on the bench / stool was MALE. Pity our dearie male friends, they are always the ones sufferings whenever girls are shopping! Next, don't judge the book by its cover. We might be deceived by a person's outlook. Once you have approached him/her, it's another story from what you expected!

Finally I have found "My Honeymoon" Dessert House! It was the place where my room has its poster, I have searched for it for menu items...in short, to have dessert in this outlet was my dream. Haha! My dream realized! Satisfied!

Signature item: durian pancake

Cheers.

Movies

Record breaking, 3 visits of cinema box in a week!

I am a movie lover, yet normally I will visit cinema only with the casting of blockbusters. But this time, with the faith that I only left almost 1 month of campus life, I sweared to live as a university student, enjoy as a kl/selangor dweller!

Final Destination, Up, and Where Got Ghost were the 3 which I watched. With different people, different theme, different venue, different feeling.

Final Destination. Disgusting, freaky death was successfully staying me away from Spaghetti Bolognese. It was totally sick to see people dying one after one.

Up. Nice funny animation which I like to watch. But perhaps I have a very high expectation towards this movie, somehow it did disappoint me. Anyway, it was still a movie which you could be inspired. I like the part when Mr. Fredickson threw away all the belongings in the house which he used to cherished so much. Life is like this, all you need to do is letting go...Some says, one an empty bottle can be filled. So, casting away the past, looking forward is something which I would say, being inspired.

Last but not least, Where Got Ghost? It's another Jack Neo's movie. I watched his shows since I learn to say "Dad" and "Mum". I like the way they talk, so familiar. I couldn't remember how many times I laughed, until people sitting next to me also could not stand my lost of control! It was really hilarious! But it did bring some message, like never take shortcut, it does need you to pay the price! And...the great love of mother, touching part.

Great amusement. I was entertained.

Cafe-ing Ambience

I love to have one or two friends, sitting down, in a nice aroma, cosy ambience...have a small chat, for few hours.

I had once, in the McD though, no bragging, only long talk. Holding the hot brewed coffee/tea, in the chilling morning, with the sore tiring body. As if it was the best shelter, from anything.

Then, other times, I love to order hot drink, instead of cold. It provides me the feeling of warm, warming down from my throat, to my heart.

Despite my allergy to caffein and unwell stomach, still I crave for a cup of hot coffee/tea when I feel lost. I would say, it is comforting, for my soul.

Collecting cups, as I wish to capture the most beautiful and warm-hearted memory...

Final Destination

Vaguely remember few years back, I have made a vow not to watch this kind of movie again. Yet, in order to spice up my boring life, I decided to give it a try.

Well, it turned not very bad...(but bad enough to make me feel pain and freaky all over my body). I have been told, not to be too serious, it's just a movie. And perhaps can view it from another side. Since everybody is dying (who says no?), why not living everyday to the fullest?

Recently, due to the tiring event3 (I would say this was the most tiring event so far), I tend to blame others for not really helping. Organizing an event is a teamwork, obviously. I was touched to see some Muslim friends still carrying things and trying to make fun in the midst of carrying tables, chairs ETC. I was amazed. So, I never really dare to complaint much that I did a lot (although I really feel backpain and strained muscle esp of shoulder and thighs).

Forget and forgive. Holding grudge is really hurt to oneself, health especially. So, laugh it off. It is another brand new day, everybody is just so nice!

Everyone is moving towards final destition respectively, why not be more forgiving? Since we all are fated to know each other, just spread the love seeds around, at least, try to.

Nonsense

Speechless, Mindless, Wordless...

P/S: the most nonsense written

I wanna be...(part 2)

Got a few feedbacks from the previous post. Some even suggests me to take my second degree in the field which I wantED to pursue.

Well, this is not impossible. But, the critical period for me now is choosing a suitable place to do my practical. Firstly, regconize my interest and strong point. What do I like? I admit I demand a lot in the life! I do not want my life to be let go like this. I believe I always have a choice. Who knows, I like my job then found my value there? This is of course the happily-ever-after episode. But things could not be run as what you expected too. Be ready of the consequences.

If there is a 2nd chance...I believe all of us will make wiser decision, do things seriously. Every little single thing happens in life everyday, in fact, prepares you. A little move today, who knows resulting in BIG. So, do not underestimate what you have gone through, try to figure out what is the learning point of everything and relate it to your future.

I know I am kind of gibbering here, but just trying to clear my mind...
In short, keep learning passionately! And....never feel embarassing to ask, ask for what you want! If you never ask, you will never get it. Luck is something for the people who is prepared.

I wanna be...

Boys and girls, today you have a write up an essay entitled "Who I Want To Be in the Future?"

Familiar title huh? I believe everyone of us has written this kind of essay, in every language we learnt. It always starts as "Everyone has dream/ambition, so as I"; "人人都有理想，我也不例外"; "Setiap orang mempunyai cita-cita, termasuklah saya". Pondering it, is it true?

Yes, we used to yell as loud as possible about our great dream when we were small. Then, the volume of the yelling gets lower and lower as days pass. Finally in the very stage to start a career, we whisper: DID we have a dream?

Instead, I will suggest we asked ourselves, "Do I remember my dream?"

In this very moment, we have to choose a place for our industrial training. After 6 months of that internship, then we shall bid goodbye to textbook and exam and assignment and the truancy games. Flashing back...

UPSR results released.
"I wanna be a doctor. Everyone says doctor is great. I wanna be someone great."

PMR results released.
"I wanna be a great professor, with a big spectacles and lots of encyclopedias held in hands."

SPM results released.
"I wanna be a pharmacist. I love playing around with chemistry formula and it looks dashing with the white lab-coat!"

STPM results released.
"I wanna be a nutritionist. Still I can wear my dream white coat and consult people."

In university, results releasing means nothing much to me. It's just an evaluation of how much you manage to memorize in the last night of exam day. Who do you wanna be? Nobody cares to ask me this question. In front of the mirror, I try to ask this question in a careful way. I see the same image as years back, but I can't read her mind.

Meander. It's what in the cloud around her head. Perhaps, it is a way to run away from facing the shattering of all the so-called ambition. Perhaps, it is a way to find another true self. Perhaps, it is where she was meant to be.

Well, every field is fertile enough to grow. Just stride, finally there would be a greener pasture.

Fire Me!

Recently, there is a word to describe myself: m.e.s.s.

M=moody
E=emotional
S=slavish
S=sickening

In order to bring myself together, I try to run. Yes, R.U.N.

R=restructuring
U=upbeat
N=narcissist

Sounds funny? I know. Just doing some word-building (people nowadays are so fond of abbreviation), for self-entertainment. In fact, I really went for running. Instead of put it as run, I prefer to say it is jogging. I really need to find the old-dear-self back. The one who is active, never-afraid-of-anything, confident and full of ideas. So, I try to work on the activities which I used to do days back...Imagine, I danced, swam, jogged, played......It hard to believe I have abandoned all these stuffs after one or two years!

So, come on! Seek the old and bring new elements in life! I am really bored of the life nowadays! I need FIRE, bring me to life!

A Thousand Splendid Suns

It was a book bought in India. In India, book stalls are everywhere, and you can easily spot which are the books people are reading nowadays.

I bought it, A Thousand Splendid Suns, with the author who was unknown to me, Khaled Hosseini. All I know was it was a best-selling novel with touching plots. I believe every book is worth to read and there are things to be learnt from. So, without thinking much, the book became one of my collection.

Two months passed. Finally, I have finished reading it. It was not a very pleasant process in reading it, I frowned most of the time. Yet, it's totally worth it! Take a peep at the social life of Afghanistan, you would be amazed by the system which is so intolerating!

Laila, a smart and independent girl, borned in a open-minded family. Education and freedom of going out with friends were her fortune in the young age. However, the war has destroyed everything. Her family, friends, and life! The pregnant woman, with a savage and misogynist husband, the life is still has to be carried on, for the sake of the child.

I cannot imagine how to endure everything of the women living in that kind of circumstances, in the harsh reign of Taliban. They need to cover their faces and every parts of body in black, in burqa. They stumble, they cried at home, they scream in silence. Men are in-charged of everything. The virtues of women are no more than listen, follow and keep bearing. Bear with all the beatings, all the discrimination and unfairness. Women are treated as slaves.

In the novel, there are few chapters talking about the women taking decision. They tried to run away, they tried to protest, they tried to kill...Desperation, it is the drive for human beings to do something unexpected.

I don't know what I suppose to feel, should be glad I am a Malaysian? Should be glad I am not obliged to anyone? So am I supposed to be enjoying the freedom to do whatever I want?

To many, people like us are fortunate. Many are telling us we have unlimited opportunities, as long as we dare to dream. So what? I suddenly feel, eventhough, we are bound to too many things, too many things need to be considered.

Anyway, as nike says, just do it. Whatever you want, go!

Tourist Attraction in BP

Where to go if you are coming to the old little town, Batu Pahat?

Few days ago, I will still say, "Nothing la, just find some places to eat lo!"

Until the day, my aunt family was coming down from JB. They insisted to go a place whereby people can touch the fish there. I was curious. How come that place can be that attractive?One of its attraction: near the sea.

Once arriving, I was shocked! So many tourist buses! I was having a chat with the 'tourists' there. Most of them are aunties, booking a bus and coming to this HOLY temple, trying to touch the fish reared in a pond. According to them, if you manage to touch the fish from head to tail, then you will be lucky!

It's funny to see the people, try their very best...in order to sayang the fish!
All the best!!