Yes Man!

As year 2008 comes to a close, it's time for many of us to make resolutions for the coming 2009.

Still weaving my dreams, without any practical movements to realize it. It has always my character shortcoming!

Thanks to CY, recommended the movie "Yes Man", starring by Jim Carey, to us. Funny yet meaningful! I feel it was a great movie to end my 2008, as it brings some enlightenments!

As i living out from home, to keep myself from any 'trouble', most of the time, i would say "No" to any offer. U know, shunning from the outside world, rather keeping myself 'safely' in the room, in front of the computer. As time passes by, the enthusiasm seems flying away. The so called 'dreams' have become the visionary hope, couldn't be reached.

I still remember Allison saying, "Life is a playground." Who says not? Just keep myself playful! I love the nifty me!

The successes u reap in life are the results of the positive energy and hard work that you have sown in the past - a past that you can begin forming immediately!

Time to Pick My French Up!

Today, the only class meet with lecturer was my French. I have been insisting to take level 3 in this semester, regardless the packed time schedule due to 2 6hours lab session each. Well, my target is to finish the DELF A2 before i go to practical during my last semester. So, it's important for me to finish my 3rd level in this semester.

Language always sounds interesting for me, unlike other subjects which required much memorizing and understanding and analyzing and blah blah blah...Language is fun! Well, let's put more effort in this level. It's going to be hard, surely. Stop fooling around and get a real strive!
がんばてください！

Au revoir, ma vacances

So my fifth semester break is coming to the end...

Let's flash those beautiful moments during the wonderful ending of 2009.

My holidays started with the fun trip to kuantan and kuala terengganu. Thanks to ST and SW, both of u are the great hosts! Besides the beautiful scenery, we have better understanding among the participated couse-mates. Unforgetable happly moments were weaved.

Time to face to reality, money is always not enough. As usual, i was going to work. As DutchLady 'MerryLand' station master. Well, it was boring yet i gained something in the 12days. A good experience by the way!

My dear cousins FINALLY got married! haha! This is my first time to be the sisters of wedding.

Followed by few baking gathering with friends...Hanging out yamcha at night...Shopping at The Summit, BPMall, movie...Blah blah blah...

In a very last minute decision, went to Singapore. Thanks to Alvin, i learnt something new in photographing...wish my skill can keep on improving...hehe! I shall say: Singapore is a beautiful place! Nice to visit, nice to CYCLE AROUND! haha!

Then, Christmas gathering at aunt's house at Skudai. Due to the unexpected problem of the car, we were having the unexpected stay at kulai. Took few pictures at uncle's garden...

Wow...great huh? At least i have no regrets during this holidays. Looking forward to more fun!

On the Sleigh

251208: merry christmas!

In this festive season, we have spent such a joyful moment with relatives at bukit indah, skudai. With aunt's home-made christmas cake and ice-cream, brewed pork with vinegar, and a lot of food and chats. Not forgetting, the shopping at the newly opened jusco at bukit indah.

It's time back to bp. Since we were driving, my sis n i decided to rotate drivers. She was driving back. Everything was good...until at the 29.8 of the PLUS. "It's hot!" my sis exclaimed! The index of the dashboard indicated the car was very hot, in the red zone already!

Quickly, she parked the car at the roadside. I shall say the mobile phone was the greatest invention in the century! I called for the PLUS service. Before they arrive, the private services have been approaching...they tried to persuade us to accept their kindness for towing our car to the nearest workshop. Anyhow, i decided to trust PLUS instead. However, their service was only limited to the nearest toll.

At the Sedenak toll, we waited for uncle who was living at kulai to our aid. Final decision, still, we have to get the towing service.

I was at the driver seat, sis was beside me. So, we were being towed! Not to forget, it was Christmas! So, we were as if the Santa Claus, on the sleigh. The only difference is, we did not see any reindeer! In order to record this special experience, sis n i took out our mobile phone (again, the greatest invention), record a movie during the 15 minutes tour.

Well, the car has been sent to workshop. We have an unexpected stay at uncle's house. After lots of fun and exciting moment, i was defeated, by the lurking influenza.

OMG, time to rest, waiting for getting better.......

bread baker

Recently have been keen in making bread.

Yes, it is BREAD. I have been intending to try on the home-made bread since one year ago. Finally in this holiday, i worked it out! My first trial was the sweet bun without any filling. It turned out not bad, at least for a first timer (according to my mum). Well, the good beginning injected motivation into me.

I kept on trying, pandan bun, peanut butter bun, and the most recent peanut sweet bun. The buns are tough, not that kind of soft and fluffy which some of u might think. But the taste is there, only the texture, might need some improvement.

I try to figure out the reason. Searching online, finding different recipe, asking around for suggestion...still have no a better idea...

anyone, welcome any suggestion for making softer bread.

thank u!

recharged...for change

Feeling better from sick yesterday. I was almost in the dormancy for the whole day. maybe it was a signal given to force me to have a good rest to replenish my energy which was at the critical level after back from singapore.

Anyway, i have spent good time at the metropolis. Another good experience. Another eye opening session. Another thought of life. Another...me.

Very soon, the new semester would be coming. I hate the thought of repeating the routine of study life. So i determined to make some difference...some changes...

Be courageous for the change!

night cycling

in the very last minute, i decided to come singapore. it was an interesting idea attracts me here, cycle around the island.

on the first day, there was research on detailed singapore road map in chernyih's house. anyway, we have a trying on our cooking skill for dinner that night. it was lovely to enjoy the freshly cooked vege, meat and eggs. thanks to chernyih's dad, i enjoyed the ceylon tea indulgence.

the night has come. we cycled and cycled, along the road. at first, the breeze and drizzle was refreshing. then the rain was quite annoying since we were wet. it was definitely not comfortable. mountbatten, geylang...after about 2 hours, the town has been reached. photo snapping time. it was the night scene of a busy city. 2am in the orchard road, without crowd, only the lonely candy decoration.

lost in the city. the criss crossing of the unfamiliar roads. although the map is on hand, it was not much help to fulfill the earlier target - cycle around the singapore. following the mrt railway was the final decision...tiong bahru, redhill, queenstown, commonwealth...

drenched, exhausted, lost......finally we gave up. in order to reach east coast in the morning, we have to find the way back. again, the way back was a challenge since the juncitons and roads were fooling us again.

a few kind-hearted people were met. few advices and suggestions were given. yet there were contradictions. in the end, it was the determination left to keep us back to the route and keep cycling. numbness, pain...all has been put behind.

anyway, being able to return the bicycle to east coast on time. though tired, it was a great experience. how many are able to cycle in an unfamiliar city for more than 8 hours continuously?

satisfied, yet looking for more!

Happiness

Each time passes by the bakery shop, smelling the freshly baked bread, couldn't help, i feel it was a kind of happiness, isn't it? Many of the times, i share the thought of bakery shop=happiness with few of my friends. Just imagine, only the bakery shop with its oven, its bakeries could bring the feeling of comfort and happiness to a lost chilled lonely kid!

Planning for almost a year, today, my dream realized! I baked my bread! It was a success, i can say. The tinkle sound of the oven could trigger my excitement. The moment, open the oven, it was the satisfaction i couldn't tell.

I shared the bread with mum. We chatted, with the smell of the buttered sweet bun, with the pot of tea...we had a sweet evening! It was happiness, wasn't it?

I wish, deeply wish, i could bring happiness to people around me. I can do it, can't I?

wedding feast

since back to bp, i was occupied, at least didnt have much time to shake my legs at home!

Friday, it was the wedding buffet at cousin's house.
Saturday, wedding dinner.
Sunday, as sister companion, followed my dear cousin to Muar.

A wedding really required much energy and of course, cost! wow, it looked so glamorous to all the invited guests. however, for the pair, it was super tiring!

Is it really necessary to make ourself so busy by holding such a big feast during wedding? i wonder...

miss invisible

Have been laid behind from internet for about 2 weeks, working at midvalley...the 2 weeks was a boring routine - Eating-Working-Sleeping. The EWS was a cycle, repeating. I hate that kind of life, thanks god it only last for 12days.

I find myself was a weird element there, it was almost impossible for me to mix well with the others. I was insoluble in the solution. There might be 2 causes, I have repelled myself from the group; or i have been repelled by the group. Well, the might be other insignificant causes...

I learn to enjoy to be the miss invisible. eating alone, walking alone, hiding in the corner...though smiling, there is something concealed, something to hide. Insignificant element, make no difference with the presence.

There's a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

The more days i live, the more i feel i do not belong to anywhere i stay. How i wish i could step out from my comfort zone and take a wider look outside...

Playing

It's holidays again! That's what i love university life - after 4 months of study, then a long break would be coming...i love holidays, as i can fulfill my dream of going places where i havent stepped before.

Coming back from kuantan and kt, i would say it was a pleasant trip. To go visiting places, trying new foods, listening different dialects, buying new things, playing new games......i was enjoyed, for sure! Compared to shopping in grand looking shopping mall and watching movie in chilled cinema and eating out at exclusive restaurant, i find myself rather going those little places but full of things which i regard non-commercial.

well, let's play hard!

Kuantan Trip (Day 2)

Today, there was a delay in the departure time to Sungai Lembing. You know, those Mahjong addictors turned to bed at about 2am in the morning, how could you expect them to awake on time at 4.15am?

After wolfing down a simple breakfast (one slice of super size wholemeal bread), we got on to the bas sekolah again. All of us were so excited, although we were late...anyway, our excitement has turned to a big shock as the bus screeched to a sudden halt!

The bus has broken down...what to do? in the middle of the kampung road, in the dark before the dawn..do something, call someone...well, the person came to our saviour was xingting's darling! After getting the call from his sweetheart, he straight away drove to our salvation! Thanks to him, our long anticipated mountain climbing plan can be safe from cancellation from our schedule!

It was hard at first, since everyone was still in the depression after so many problems occured. Anyway, we have managed to reach the peak in about one and a half hour. It was not really hard, to some, it was just the daily warming up exercise! Well, the reaching at the top excited us a lot! taking pictures, chatting for fun...

Again, i would say the clouds was my favourite scene!

Then, Lembing noodles is something which cannot be missed by any mountain trackers!

yeah!

Wonderful Kuantan Trip (day 1)

allow me to shout 'MERDEKA' for 3 times, in order to celebrate the finishing of my 5th semester! After the torturing5 papers in 5 days, all of our coursemates have suffered for a life which not fit to be called as "life" ! With promises, i am going to enjoy!
let's cheer! (taken at teluk cempedak beach, courtesy from shuwen)

so..already swallow one bullet...4 to go...

today i was early to the faculty, met dear cheanvoon. nice to see him really! in fact, a disease can change a person. he has changed a lot physically. still remember that one who was always care about the physical appearance, and spent so many hours per day to gel the hair...now, he is really changed! we have to admit, we have no control over destiny. after all the treatment, he looked older, paler, and lose of the previous radiance.

anyway, that was only the first look! he was very positive! i believe, after this tragedy, he would become more charming! so, cv, don't worry! we are all ur friends and u have our support every moment! i am always your team mate, always ready to play badminton with you! dun forget to ajak me if u want to play! haha!

talking about myself, dark circle around eyes, heavy eye bags, dull face, messy hair...that's what i look like now! the exam look...

well, i would be ok! to be radiant until you have to wear sunglasses when seeing me after this friday 5pm!

GO!

finally the day has come!! today is the day! the five bullets are going to be shot since today 2pm. well, let's face it with courage! i will be survive five days later, even though there would be enduring scars lingering all over me..! haha!

anyway, i am so looking forward to the coming semester break! finally i can go many places as i wished! kuantan, kuala terengganu, kukup, cameron highland and so on and on! really excited about that. with friends, family and fun!

with those beautiful anticipation after exam, i have no fear! get the hatchet and be the fearless warrior!

GO! GO! GO! FIGHTING!

daydreaming

take a breath...well, i still cannot get off of those notes and books yet!

next week, 5papers in 4 days, isn't it crazy? really looking forward to the days after exam! how i wish i have a doremon besides me, pass me a superb machine, all i need to do is set the time, and press the button, then the machine would send me to the 07/11/2008. How nice! (in my dream, i know...)

by the way, do u guys know one of tips to stay healthy is DAYDREAMING! i must admit it is one of my capabilities. Whenever i am alone or even in a group, absent-minded can explain me. my mind always flies to the beautiful scene, where i have never step my foot before...then, many crazy ideas crawl in...then, all the illusions result the smile in my face!

let's see, daydreaming leads to hope! once you dream, you hold a hope. you believe you would be in the desired scene. consequently, it motivates you and makes you happy! simple theory! as simple as that! haha!

see, my favourite farm scene...peaceful and well, in my dream, i was there!

Zip It Up

I was back at home before the final exam starts. As I have promised to friends, i would make something as a token of friendship.

Then, again, mum was my greatest help! Basically the pencil case was her idea few years back during my sis's fair at her secondary school. They were selling mum's products.

So, tagging mum, from buying the zips to sewing them together...all i spent were my sight and opinion, not really got a hand in it! Mum completed them!


See, the colourful pencil case is out!


It can be opened anywhere...this is its uniqueness!

it's good making something. i have learnt how, next time let me to try it out? anybody wants?
welcome any order!

i wanna be back to those years

I am lazy back at home now...having my real break before final exam.

Having a few flip on my class magazine of secondary school...memory of 2003, flashing back...
It was such a sweet memory. Suddenly i miss my old classmates so much! Shiau Hui, Cynthia, Shze Sieng, Siew Hoon, Hui Sian, Mok, Wei Wei, Fang Ting...All of you! How i wish i could be back to yesteryears! I miss those days!

It is really different of the friendship forged between the secondary school and university. It because of the people around are different or i have changed into a different person?

I must admit i do change. From what way, i cannot tell. Just, more things come into my mind...more complicated.

I really wish i could be back into the innocent and carefree years, me...

The End

The 4 days food fair event is over! Just coming back from closing ceremony...

I don't like protocol, why not everything just being done in a casual and informal way! Then everybody can have fun all time long...Having such a formal dinner, dressed up formally...then, waiting. Waiting for the coming of VVIP, waiting for the standard ceremony procedure, waiting for the setting...

Very ironically, we as the VIP of the dinner, being served. yet in the end of the dinner, after the leaving of the VVIP, we have to clean everything. sweeping floor, cleaning table, re-arranging everything. tomorrow we have to get up early and have a gotong royong in our kitchen and the complex as well.

So, we as the organizers, have done different parts: being the ajk, audience, apprentice, promoter, server, cameraman......really, i think we are pretty good at playing different kinds of roles!

In an event organized, we can know each other more! It was enough to build a friendship, and sufficient to destroy one as well! Fraction occured. unavoidable. i think we must learn how to tackle the problem in a more mature way.

Well, it was over. Become another page my history. i would say it was an experience and it was good to try, always.

ok, i am so sleepy now...zzz...zzz

tomorrow would be a great day!

Food Fair Day 1

i have been lost in contact for more than 30hours, no cellphone, no internet connection...all by myself, alone.

on the early morning of sunday, i finally came out from my isolated cage, strided to the food complex, prepared be to a busy day since it was our food fair starting day!

everybody was enthusiast in setting the floor. would be going to be a good day for us? well, it seemed so!

anyway, the first upm food fair was really a trial, that's what i should say. not many companies joining us, around 10. That's quite far from what we expected. Futhermore, the visitors were not many. there was even a time, when outside was raining cats and dogs, no a single silhoutte of visitor was seen!

i feel quite symphathy for those sponsors. i know they expect much more than this.

yet, from the beginning. i, as one of the committee, admit i didn't commit wholeheartedly. there were too much of chaos, among the board. i would rather stand aside, without putting my hands into any party. i hate politics! futhermore, i think the delegation of job was done in a mess! no motivation, no co-ordination among the committees. so, perhaps it is good to have something we have already had for now. at least something was there!

Then, seeing those foodservice seniors were preparing the exclusive five star meals for the function the day after, i was impressed! they looked organized, committed. they are disciplined in the kitchen, well arranged in setting the dining area. Well, they were simply great, in my witness.

however, do you know how hard they are? for a single event, they have to organize it in such a long procedure! i give them my salute!

witnessing all, the idea of starting business online roots deeper in my heart. i think all of the messy and troublesome works in the workplace can really be lessened by what we call it as 'internet'!

well, i am truly weary. with lots of assignment. i think i lost myself again. no thrill, no passion...

seeking...

A SOTONG'S STORY

It was supposed to be a good day to me, a memorable nice day for me, since i am satisfied with my French oral test today.

Yet, after the food fair meeting. Disaster struck! Where is my handphone?

I found the lost of it whenever i want to find the key to open my room, the key is attached to my handphone sachet! Taking out all the stuffs from my bag! Turned it upside down...Where is my handphone sachet and the handphone inside?

Stay calm! I told myself. Nobody could i turn to. I went to the office to get the spare key, entered my room. Think. What's next?

I dialed my own number with the public phone. Ring...ring...nobody picked up... A good sign, though. At least nobody turn it off yet. It must be fallen somewhere! Flashed back, where could it be dropped?

Taking the bus to faculty. Checking everywhere i have stepped...BKTM 1, the meeting place. No! Nothing to be found! Nobody! Previna was seen. Told her about the incident. At least, she gave me a suggestion, to check with the bus driver. In case it was dropped in the bus.

Before all of this, i rushed into the computer like a hurricane. Open my msn, telling sis and joanne about this. Asked them to call my number. Hopefully someone with kind hearted could reply their call.

Then, walking to Faculty of Economy, since i was having my lunch there. Sweating, i checked the table and tracked back all along the way. No! Nothing! I asked the stall owner, he just gave me a very sorry expression : it's almost zero possibility to find lost handphone here!

Well, bus drivers. I stopped a bus in half way, not at a bus stop. The bus driver was kind enough to stop the bus. A worried me, asking the passengers to check the seats, any handphone found? The bus was stopped and everyone looked down, searching...Embarrased, i was!

The kind bus driver suggested me to check at the k14 bus stop. I took one bus and one bus...kept searching on it. I took 3 bus tour around the campus.

Well, given up. It was gone! Let it go. I was back at my room. Fatigue.

Hot, can't make myself sleep although my eyes were almost closing...

Go swimming! I didn't want to let myself ponder more on the missing handphone. It would be fine. Couldn't help, i was asleep in the bus along the very short journey to swimming pool. Luckily i didn't miss the stop.

After immersing in the water for about half an hour, i called joanne as i saw her.

Guess what? she told me:

Your handphone is with susan now!!!!!!

Gosh, what a big and stupid SOTONG am i!!!!! i must be left it at the faculty!

Confession: A big sotong is really sorry about it's carelessness. Very very sorry to all of u!

REALLY SORRY!

NOTHING

What i want to do now?

The answer is simple: NOTHING!

My definition of NOTHING can be very flexible. Grab a book, sit back and relax, flip a page, take a sip of green tea...the soothing songs is whirling in the air...enjoying the chilling air...

Despite of tonnes of assignment, my tempting friend - Procrastination, again, date me out. My dear P is just like the devil, drag me out of the messy troublesome reality...together, we have a lovely night in the fantasy...

Well, it's me. Living in the fantasy, alone (except u call my dear P as an accompaniment)...

Just leave me here. Forgotten.

kitchen try out!

i tried to blindfold my eyes to avoid the sight of the high pile assignment, laying at the unnoticeable corner in the room. well, i am back. finally i am back home. though only for few days!

wow, after the continuous working hours and tough works, i can have my relaxation back at home. sweet fume in the air!

well, has not been step into the kitchen and stayed away from stove for quite some time, it's time to cook! have fun!

Spinach fettucine, cabbage, cauliflower, okra, pinaapple slices, seaweed. Flavoring with miso and olive oil.My special blended red bean soya milk!

Enjoy!

sushi training!

it has been 3days working in the sushi king! it was...well, fun!

the first day, the 11 of us are so enthusiast by the cute costume! i love it! then it comes to our "always smile" service. we were doing the service training on the first day. It was conducted by the trainer, azila. she was nice and really an excellent serving crew and as a trainer!

i love food, as usual. and i love dining atmosphere. people are coming to enjoy, to socialize, with good mood and expecting to be served well. From past experiences, this time it was a bit different. this is japanese style, Irraishaimasse! anyway, getting to work with so many friends around is another unique experience for me too!

On the 3rd day, our sushi making journey finally started. after the intensive sushi training on the 2nd day conducted by ms wong, we were introduced to tonnes of the unfamiliar terms regarding to the name of sushi. Nigiri, gunkan, maki, temaki, sashima, sake, kani, ika, iidako......so many! yet, we tried our hard to stuff all those recipe and names into our brain...back to the 3rd day story, the poor midvalley 3rd floor guys were poor, started from 10am to 9pm, making sushi continuously (despite one hour break)...we 4, the midvalley LG floor lucky guys, have the opportunity to taste the new products lauched by yesterday by 8.45pm! It's so fortunate! yet, we were not as busy as the guys upstair. we got the time to know more about the crew there, they are friendly and not to mention, nice!!!

anyway, it was fun. too bad i havent had any chance to take a snap of me in full uniform. i will try to upload the photos as soon as possible. it's memorable.

hopefully the sale of sushi king during our food fair would be a success!
Gambateh!

Mid-autumn Celebration

I thought i have to spend my mid-autumn alone with the high pile of notes for the first time, for which this festival is supposed to be a reunion of family and friends.

Thanks for old buddy-mok's invitation, i joined the little steamboad session in their room!

What on earth the secret ingredient Xiao Ling is puuting into the cooker?

See, Suzhen already collapsed...mission completed!

The remain 3 survivors! Hooray, batu pahatian win! hehe!

Sandwich!

i always love FLOUR!

u know, it's always good and peace and satisfied whenever u stuff a mouthful of flour product! hehe!

picture taken at the Baker's Moment, Ikano. The delicious BBQ Bugwich! I miss it!

online business

It has been such a wonderful time to have the interview session with Sidney and Sunny, the BigBoysOven.

Sid and Sun, more recognized as...they have been so friendly and provided us a lot of information.

Even, we were following them to the wedding cupcake set up!

Ta-dang! Finally!

Online business is always the opportunities. Merging your passion and career...Have a consideration about that, am i not?

nothing special

i have been intending to work part-time during the past week-ends. however, no work is available for me...many of my friends were going back to hometown, since it was a long week-ends (merdeka + ramadhan)...thinking of to be passing the weekends alone in the hostel...

then, thanks godness, uncle luobiao was driving back home. i could 'tumpang' his car this time! instead of passing the 3 days lonely, i could spend that with beloved family with the early mid-autunm celebration!

whenever we are back, mum is the busiest, but happiest! she is busy in preparing the meals, organizing the activities...we went to have a long walk in the sunday morning, took some pictures. feeling my skill in photography has been improved a bit, hehe!

dad was back too. he always fulfill what we need. bought an external hard dics for me...thanks a lot!

to be frankly, i really think i am fortunate, really appreciate it. especially whenever i am with dear family, i feel comfortable and being loved. i think what i can do is to be more concern about them, always think about them and talk to them always. i always think relationship and communication in a family is upmost important...!

keep studying hard...and be focus!
good luck in the coming test 2 next week.

Let's be courageous, Ting and Hwa

Another Monday is coming!

After 3days of non-stop eating and playing, i feel more motivated to plunge into my studies rather than the enthralment of non-stop making fun! As the eldest sis, i can always find motivation from my 2 younger sis, i have to always set role model for them. I always want to share my joy with them.

However, i realized my temper is always not good. I can be irritated easily due to small thing. It is really important for me to ease down, take everything easy...so, dear sis, if i have thrown tantrum to u all please forgive me and please remind me for the next time, if any...

It's time for us to study hard and do what are we supposed to do...let's hold your head high and face any challenge ahead!

Welcome, my dear sis!

Today is the day that we planned for so long! Hwa is coming to have her trip here! so happy!

Hehe!Today, i suddenly found my laptop can be used as normal again...weird...but it is a surprise! Today is such a nice day, enjoyable...We went to sing Karaoke at Green Box Balakong. 3 of us have the common favourite songs and our keys are about the same. So, we all taking picture, recording our performance...2 words can describe all : shiok sendiri! haha!

It's so nice together with both my dear sis. we enjoy the singing, shopping, eating "paper wrapped chicken" and laughing all the way! Couldn't help, we were so happy!

Tomorrow is another enjoyment. Wish hwa has a memorable trip here!

Enjoying campus life!

It's the coming of weekend, again! Lovely weekend, without the burden of tests...

Last night, we have a late night celebration for the August babies and of course, the achievement of our College Badminton Team! We were having cakes and all kind of bakeries you could name it, believe me...There are mountains of them! Thanks fred! We were having fun, got the badminton racket on hand to have few fun strokes...until 2am, the security thought we were too noisy and chased us away for the reason disturbing the others...

Slept over 3am, this morning, still in the sweet lullaby, the phone rang! "Shilei, come to join the Family Day!" I tried to sound cheerful, "Ok, give me 10minutes!" With a rush for the toiletries, i went to the field.

Wow, so happening! Again, we were warmed up by the dancing aerobic led by Abg Ehsan and Faisal...wah, it has been such a long time i havent been dancing with them! This morning, i really really have fun! Then, it was the grouping and the activities begins!

Balloon war, egg throwing, bricks moving, dice playing...fun, fun, fun! Then it's my favourite event, tug and war! It was my first time involving in it! Our group, DESPARATE UNDERGRADUATES, cheering, "poppye the sailormoon, PULL PULL!" i was the first tugger...wow, it's really hard! i used to think i am strong enough among the girls, but so funny, i was being tugged away intead of pulling! haha! my legs almost cramped, my hands are hurt and i was almost "eating the grass"...anyhow, we lost but we tried desperately! Again, having a lot of fun!

Now i realised, the weekends can be so happening and cheerful!
Enjoying campus life!

Win vs Lose

Again, our national shuttler Lee Chong Wei defeated his dangerous opponent, Lee Hyun-il (Korea) in the semi-final match! It was an exciting moment...at least, one Olympic medal is sure on hand!

Whatever the result is in the final, i was so enjoyed in following the badminton matches from the start in the Olympic. Playing badminton, esp when you meet a almost equal level opponent, it is a mental game! A mate told me, whoever playing, he/she is nervous and afraid of the opponent. The key to success is depending who has conquer his/her fear. As the famous saying goes, "the biggest enemy is always yourself!" Well, i agree.

Let's see those failed in the games...the world is so realistic...We all like triumph, focus on the high achiever. The failure is always being conspued, or forgotten. If you win, many will embrace you and thumb up at your performance, including those never know u at all! On the contrary, many will turn their head away, left the loser alone, facing his/her failure with a great bunch of regret without any sympathy...

This is life! That's why the great, the rich, the famous are always the centre of focus...the so called "friends" are countless...

So i always tell myself, do not comparing oneself with the others. Everyone has different strengths and abilities, so as flaws! What i expect from myself is, expand my strentgh which is gifted my parents and explore more, develop more...increase my curiosity and desire to discover...by the way, don't waste my life!

Aza Aza Fighting!

Fergie's Finally is lingering now...Finally...anyway, our final match has over. We...LOST!

Very sorry to say, i was, again, contributing to the loss againt k6. 2nd time, met with our traditional opponent, still, i was unable to conquer my own fear. I still cannot perform well in the court, in front of k6.

Anyway, the end of the tournament means the commencement of my another new chapter! I have to say, i really really appreciate our teammate! We love each other! Every encouragement, every pat on the shoulder...it's sincere!

Ok, still have 2 test papers to take tomorrow. Caffeine will be my sincerEST mate tonight!
Gambateh!
aza aza fighting!

end the last chapter...

blank...unsure...wish him all the best...happiness...

i dunno what should i feel, just feeling a bit lost...

many of the times, i would recall those sweet memories...even now, almost everyday, the image still often silhouetted in my mind...

let bygones be bygones...wish everyone all the best...i shall find my way of life...it's no use to looking back...

it's time to keep all those beautiful pictures into my album nicely...then,close it...

a new chapter shall begin...

Mark your life

very unusually, now i am still awake...(1.50am)...

We won! Our college team just finished our semi final badminton match. Now we are moving into the final, which is tomorrow (more precisely, today) 5pm. I have been enjoyed so much in the tournament...we have come so far, we have reach here...as last year, the moment of the final match is still fresh in my mind...i was the last single, playing the determining last game, the struggling, the sportmanship, i will never ever forger...

again, history is going to repeat. we still, facing our traditional opponent, kolej 6, who would be the winner? everything is unknown...

anyway, at least we have accomplished our mission - moving into the final...

I can say i am so enjoyed all through the tournament. As if I have found myself, I used to be as active person...due to real life pressure, i have been captivated in the cage. Only sport, i found the exit and escape! I don't want it to be finished...to end...in the tournament, i met few more new friends, hopefully we could continue our friendship via playing badminton in the free times! Looking forward to it...

Having the enjoyable, memorable life!
Mark your life!

Restart from the Scratch

Stuck! In the midst of notes, books...i am still not ready, to study...

2 tests were over in the past 2 days. I have to admit, my mind is somewhere else. I want to go work and travel in USA. There are a few orders lately, but i still have to worry other things, the budget......my life has never been systematic, always chaotic. I run away, from all the problems. I turn to sleep, whenever there is troubles. I look for food to crunch, to chew, to swallow, whenever there is unwanted things to do...

Now, it's time to sit down...take out the old pencil, list down those things needed to be settled. Organize my life, before it turns to a real mess! Re-Start from the scratch!

Badminton

Again, we won! Our College moved into semi-final!

I played 3rd single, the key player for the match...i was very lucky in this tournament so far, the victory always stands beside me. Thank God!

We are a team. I enjoyed the cheer from the crowd, yelled my name and gave me support continuously! Thanks to everyone of kolej14! You all are just the best! I promise i will humbly improve my skill and follow your guidance, try my best and focus on every game!

Flashing back...when i was about 5 y/o, dad always brought me to the badminton court to see their game. Then i was always playing at the side, enjoy myself. Then, mum always played with us in front of the house in the evening, when there were not so windy...Sweet memory...

Then, in my Form6, i knew a bunch of guys who played badminton regularly. I became one the member...although i was not really as good as them. However, it was my best time to practice and enjoy! The friendship...everlasting, i wish. Just wondering, when could all of these old friends gather and play the game again? When is the 'next time'? I do really miss the old days...maybe, now, everyone is different, with different skill...but who cares? The most important thing is ENJOY THE GAME!

I will try my best in the coming match...wish me good luck!

Create the magic of your own!

Just watched the movie, Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium. It was a great movie, i like magic! Magical world, is what i expect in my life!

Magical, different people will provide different annotation. To me, as the Randy Souders' picture, it's a quiet courtyard, peaceful lane, quaint little shops, friendly neighbours......you know, Mr Magorium owned a toy store, or more specifically, it's a magical store! If you believe, that's it! I don't want the little magical world in my heart gone! Keep the faith! I believe, in someday, i will find my own magical emporium, or am i already in it? i guess......

single room

i am glad last semester i was determined to change myself into single room in the hostel. It's in the 5th floor...well, no lift...still i think 5th floor is the cleanest and most beautiful scenery could be seen. so, a nice place! i like to be at the room, alone. reading novel, scratching something on a piece of paper, decorating my board in room, turning on the music to the loudest, even singing to the highest pitch i could reach!

i really think everyone should have a privacy space of his/her own. this is a space where to yell out those accumulated feelings! One person can never be happy all the time, though he/she manage to hang the ear-to-ear smile all the time! Mood is something bestowed to human beings! i always believe there is a need to tidy up/sort our our moods. Diary is always my way out.

anyway, i am doing good now! to all my friends and beloved family, i am back (from the blue sky...)

green box

i like to sing! i like to perform in front of all people! you can say, my desire for performance is always strong, strong, strong.......

finally, we have realized our promise, going to sing k together!

it's fun! enjoyable!

i love you all, gals!

the dark knight

finally, dear cv has finished his last chemotherapy! congratulations! i am so glad to hear this news! and he was so sweet coming back with us and even went to watch the new blockbuster-the dark knight at tgv, the mines!

embarassingly admitted, it was my first time watching movie at the mines...hehe...anyway, i have tried something new again, one step forward!

talking about the movie, batman, as usual, charming yet mysterious prince...the hero. however, the storyline was too long for me...it was freezing in the box office! i felt i was a snow man...icy...there is always about a good man turning into a bad guy, after losing everything (if love and dignity are the so called 'everything')

yeah, why we want to be nice and good? because we are human. we have our identity. we have our family and friends loving us and we do not want to disappoint them! i have read one quote: how to determine what is right and wrong? the answer: what u dare to do in front of your parents or let them know is the right thing.

so, what if we lose our parents and all dear friends around us? i guess: we won't care! do whatever we like...maybe in this situation someone will jump out and talk about the importance of religion, the faith...

anyway, back to normal lives. i believe we should always cherish everything around us, losing something could mean gaining other things if viewing from the different angle. so, make your life meaningful by cherish everything...first of all: yourself!

can i take it easy?

i am a person, constantly live in the expectation of people...resulting now, frustrating and can't even decide what to do...

it is you, encourage me to take the exam...in the midst of very hard studying, now you told me don't involve in the business while being a student.

i have been creating so many beautiful imagination of being able to leave behind the pure student life, now it was shattered! the shattering picture haunted me...it's like break a dream cruelly...i was so naive, i was so......................stupid!

too sentimental, too emotional...want to be perfect, perfectionism?

well, take it easy, shilei!

no use to cry

VIRUS! it has been invaded my computer!
now, gone! everything! my precious memories, my pictures...there are the places when i visited, there are pictures of my cooking lab, there are pictures of my journey of taste buds, there are a lot...

there is no use to cry over the spilled milk. human, are made to look forward, not backward. what has happened are meant to be happened.

take it easy...

well, only thing can do--format my laptop...again, my baby has to be re-set memory...sorry...

Focus now

Nowadays my story will be lingering around Carousel. Non-stop working, everyday(though sometimes it was only 4 hours), it squeezed up my energy.

Every morning, in the break of dawn, while i enter the restaurant, my face will automatically light up “thirty-three" (smiling face, dun believe? try to say it out 'thirty-three' for 3 times). Facial expression does help in lifting up your mood! Once you have conveyed the friendly message, the others will appreciate (normally). That is how the two way communication happens.

Being interact with different kinds of people is fun! I usually will first hand out my friendship, regarding everyone around is my friend. I cherish my friend. So working undoubtedly full-filled my desire of making a lot of friends! Especially in the service industry, hospitality is a must. So i am as if lingering around the friendliness. However, i believe the so called "friendship" is very superficial. Wanna have tighter knot? it requires the devotion of both parties.

Enjoy every moment. Focus on everything you are doing now, to minimize the opportunity of regret...

Thanks my friendS!

study and working

Working, working...

Nowadays my life is almost all committed to work. In the early of morning, not even the break of dawn, i have to travel to work in the pitch dark. Then, having my service task...I like to give service to people. I can feel the satisfaction of keeping good relationship with people.

How should the life be? I don't know. I know i like the service job, however it should not be my permanent career prospect...

Just checked my last semester result, not bad. In fact it was my best result ever! Feeling glad about it. Why shall I do? I don't know...Getting good result means i should not give up my studies now...

Someone, i need some guidance...

Wesak Day

Wesak Day, first time i was helping out at chinese temple.

I am not a Buddhist, so it's quite weird before entering the temple. Anyway, it was good to have something to do, compared to idling at home.

I am a home lover. Yet sometimes i feel hard to have fun communication with my parents. Sometimes i feel there is a gap between us, i know it is generation gap, so called. However it should not be there! I always love to live in the peaceful and harmonious environment...like dear kitty's world. Oh, that's my dream. Sometimes, having some adventures, and being so innocent and cute and adorable all the time! Haha!

Well, let's have faith! I will build my Kitty's world!

Gone!

It's a Sunday morning. We went out to have our family breakfast. On the way back, i told casually about Shiau Hui is on her 2 months industrial attachment at Minyak Beku now.

Mum: How about you? Where will you go later?

Me: Don't know. No mood to study anymore...

Mum (started to get agitated): Why? Where is your passion and enthusiasm you used to have?

Me: Gone!

Indeed. I used to be so motivated to do anything. But recently, i am lost. I don't know what is the meaning i stay at this world. Maybe i have the high expectation burden from everyone around me. I started to know i couldn't reach that. I am not as good as they think. I am not the high achiever! Then even i could hardly accept who i am now.

And, i blame everything, everyone. Please don't put any expectation to me anymore! I am just as insignificant as the little ant passing under your toes that is hardly to be noticed. Just let me do whatever i want to do.

Or somebody...give me a guide?

Something to fill my empty heart?

Having been quite a long time (about a month) didn't write my diary...she must be upset for being abandoned for so long...

Have been at home doing nothing for 2 days, start thinking what should i do in this holidays. Work vs Travel? Of course i want to travel as far as i could in my limited time, but it needs money...back to reality.

In fact staying at home is good. Grab a book, spend the whole afternoon dwelling in it...then make myself some fresh fruit juice, refreshing! Once a while, bake some cookies or little cakes, sharing with family and neighbours....as the saying goes: cooking is fun, sharing food is life great pleasure! When mum is free, we go dressing up and having an afternoon tea at some newly opened cafe. In the morning, we go pasar together, choosing vegetables and dishes for lunch and dinner. When dad is back, nothing is greater! Tagged along with dear dad, going shopping and having great journey of taste!

Reading newspaper, the earthquake at sichuan and cyclone at myammar is terrifying. In comparison, i am much much more fortunate. That is why i feel good at home...but being stayed at one place for a long time is extremely hard for me. I have a freedom soul. My invisible wings always long to fly!

I always wonder if i could do something meaningful. Not just satisfy my desire of traveling, but satisfy other people dreams as well...i need to find peace in my heart, and i know helping people is my way out...

Looking forward to something...

Cheer for life!

Finally my sabah dream is realized!

Really thanks to Cynthia, she is so keen at organizing activities for me...though couldn't accompany me all the time.

Reached the peak of mt kinabalu, it's a undescribable feeling! Just feeling wanna jump into the clouds, for a moment, i thought i was in the heaven!

Having been in this world, not to worry too much. Just enjoy every moment!

Having fun with everything. Laugh. Cheers!

My Bad Craving Habit

You know, it's torturing to have the last two paper in the about end of the exam period!

Too bad, in the night, supposing to study, i turned to craving on my favorite biscuits, want want! I love cookies! So very habitually, i opened up the cookies bucket, took out the cookies one by one...without realizing, i have finished up a substantial amount...

Consequently, great guilt comes. How many calories have been consumed? Started to count...then thinking out how many exercises should be performed in order to get rid of the sin...result in self-blaming.

Exam month = Putting on weight month
(At least that is true for me!)

LeiLei Roaster

A new attempt! Today i decided to try on roasting chicken with hainan chicken rice!

After the hassle of the whole morning, LeiLei Roaster was ready! And the fragrant chicken rice is just nice!

Contended!